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Absolutely Any Fuzz
04:50
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[[AKA "Abs0lutely~callu, fr33 any fuZZ, re!Awaken in me..~"]]
i stay up
late again
deep exchange
there u said
"don't hesitate
fuzz or nothing
it's all okay"
well if u say so!
that day
i knew that something changed
from there
we could do anything
that way
we'd bring u inner peace
save u
from all the demons' reign
we won't need help
(anymore)
running from them
(anymore)
keep ur head up
(evermore)
i'm always here
(evermore)
waking up to
your friendly face
hours early
just that eager
physically brought
to ur aura
that day
i knew that something changed
from there
we could do anything
some way
you'll see just what i mean
so take it
my hand is urs to lead
let's be something
(evermore)
more than just this
(evermore)
land a special
(evermore)
place in our hearts
(evermore)
that day
i knew that something changed
from there
we could do anything
some way
you'll see just what i mean
so take it
my hand is urs to lead
evermore
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[[AKA "See!~Sy! nEVER LLeft the Building! Please re!Assure me!..~"]]
hey, we're forgetting something
all you see up ahead, a hurdle of flesh unlike yours
from the vents, a crucial figure's been unmasked
it seems things between there's already a mess
and even thinking this feels bad, but
if you need a plan B, we'll step in gladly
cuz u already see this beauty
you're next in line
so hold on friend, i'll keep u inside
upon one change
you promise me in there we'd remain
it's hard to wait
so call me up and keep us afloat
i'll be okay
just let me know the moment it's over
it's reassuring you've been on the other end of this
you always get me even when i feel like a jackass
there's such a strange conflict of interest
i don't want them ending wrong, i'm not egging it on
all these problems
melting her core
can't get involved
it's odd not to
speak up and reach out
when the origin is so clear
we're always here
it's only there where it starts feeling weird
want a stable way out
you're next in line
so hold on friend, i'll keep u inside
upon one change
you promise me in there we'd remain
it's hard to wait
so call me up and keep us afloat
i'll be okay
just let me know the moment it's over
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Spectating the Grave
04:05
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[[AKA "th~Shreds! the,FRACTION! the.STORY! help Witness DISPLAY Need re!Concile we!..~"]]
we're post-promotion day, from distant concept to tangible presence
you're becoming an unwilling expert in the necessity of acceptance
in the dread of night, peak greets on high, an excitement you never bring
just cling around the decent times, perceive as if we're really equally needed
please don't look at these
oh woe is me
just tryin to think
who i'll play
if they keep this up
i'll need to leave
just take a break
and breathe in
waltz in, "affectionate object"
great job, there's the onset; a locked-on target
adorable horrors and the logged-off atonement of their lone onlooker sobbing
but fall back, don't call those shots
look at all you caused, her newfound concern's the cost
it'll hurt like hell, but if you let yourself back in the war, this won't make things worse
with embellishments and the best of wits, you can't let shit like this slip
in attention deficit, but getting it in this position's a one-way trip
your business it ceased to be; don't plead to me to seek any difference
with gritted teeth, you'd better believe we'll keep the peace from ripping by the seams
please don't look at these
oh woe is me
just tryin to think
who i'll play
if they keep this up
i'll need to leave
just take a break
and breathe in
i can't look away
it's breaking me
decisions made
to stay here
give it one more kiss
swift for the kill
this is the end
we witnessed
who else steps into the picture
how will the state of things be switched up
at the other end of the fragrant river
relations escalate in the second dimension with an untamed friend
shockingly often offerings pop in, either easily went
but amidst the year, a deeper feeling seems to seep discretely in
a unique secretion of needs appears between the people who walked this spot
and so does a conflict, responsive to what's already gone on
so be honest, are we locked in
will you take the risk, restrict & limit the extent to which her expression sticks
all in the interest of an invisible pre-existing commitment unfulfilled again, but you didn't quit
cuz it can't be split, not officially at least
gotta toggle monogamy in name only
funny how that works, though it's something, sure
it's the actions that matter the most in practice
but we're still feeling split in half well after the fact
it's both i claw for
but only one fits
all thanks to methods said to be tainted
i don't know where we'll end up
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Exemption's Dominion
04:52
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[[AKA "Dropin!~Dropout! no re!Placement indeed!..~"]]
feel the facts crashing down, third time's found the farm
slips into mismatch, hardwired off the card
take one: mistakenly fake in, dread past left anchoring
face two: too complicated for such a speedy summary
stage three: what innately can't maintain a sustainable weight
it's this phase to which the immediacy currently speaks
and so quickly it came
your one promised exemption's been fully diminished, dear
a whole new fluid forces open the drain of unthinkable fear
you could process one not present, but how about neither
and the week is only just beginning, and three times you'll dream of her return
(wake)
first severing screams, a safe distance yet concerning
(i play)
on one end we get this, yet plead again this needs communication
(i say)
false frustration indeed, a potential key to the loss forthcoming
(i wait)
the second gone's still expected, but something's clearly wrong
(high stakes)
the third off sees all sections blanked, and said to get the hell away
(i stay)
well-wished corrections then been sent, seen only by the emptiness
(i pray)
hours later, deepest foundation discretely drops entirely
a range of implications more than enough to terrorize this mind
your one promised exemption's been fully diminished, dear
a whole new fluid forces open the drain of unthinkable fear
you could process one not present, but how about neither
and the week is only just beginning, and three times you'll dream of her return
imagination's aim, multiplication tables and what they "get away with"
"nothing beyond "so long", a small scar into the waste bin and replaced again"
and my dimmer region's surrounding, where it's half the battle taken
i'm three fourths of a limp body still wrongly thought to be walking
no more than three to four people take note of the bones left exposed
there i stayed committed in vain for a label that never came
you can't put these reminders behind her, i tried it
the timeframe remains agonizing
my own goddamn reflection's achieved that level
see a 99% consistency between our smiles
what a nice method to swiftly wipe away mine
and fate, keep leading me on with those fake notifications
"who the hell else could it be at this hour?" -- everyone on the planet, apparently
your one promised exemption's been fully diminished, dear
a whole new fluid forces open the drain of unthinkable fear
you could process one not present, but how about neither
and the week is only just beginning, and three times you'll dream of her return
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[[AKA "Ever~enough! in Limbo re!Main we..~"]]
now look to your left, check in again with the original wind
extending a gift, each end solely greets with insipid positioning
at most knee-deep in the state of meeting, split between streams
fucked over in blood-open romance of just-a-joke portmanteaus
and it's not your fault
it's not your fault, per se
i know what's wrong
i know what's wrong, i see
my heart just breaks
my heart just breaks
because u can't be saved
even by my hands
it's a complex, in an odd sense, up against the best intentions
broken-sleeved to those in possession of the hope-meeting steps
the deformed endearment of "pathetic" snaps back to its initial definition
breaking any difference seemingly made since beginning our conversations
i recognize i'm not entitled to reside within such an arrangement
and the obvious state of the food: non-reusable, no excuses
but in any case there's pain that came to be, of which i feel the need to speak
in basically any direction that's willing to tolerate it
and it's not your fault
it's not your fault, per se
i know what's wrong
i know what's wrong, i see
my heart just breaks
my heart just breaks
because u can't be saved
even by my hands
where we stood has proved devoid of fruit
repetition wears each end we shoot
every sentence that we said within
loses meaning deeper each day
now i feel like there i lied to you
when i claimed my hope forever stays
even though i sincerely believed
hubris takes its latest victim
from a privilege i wanted to give
thinking i could surely handle this
but it's clear my limit's being reached
neither of us have much to gain
hear inadequacy sneaking in
failure breathing down my neck again
that's your peak that still couldn't achieve
anything resembling closure
now i scream, what changes could i make
bleeding dry when no options remain
just one pool that's already so full
so it seems i'm stuck just waiting
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coop, coop, keep your cool coop
coop, coop, keep your cool coop
coop, coop, keep your cool coop
coop, coop, keep your cool coop
beyond these locks, invisible walls string along her region's offset
caught one flicker in the midst, a vacation once less distant
but even then brought no more than the minimum inches across
so stay seated and logged on, it's all you've got
coop, coop, keep your cool coop
coop, coop, keep your cool coop
coop, coop, keep your cool coop
coop, coop, keep your cool coop
now when faced with escapees
blankly tracing each insignia they speak and what to make of them
like the language of "roommates" and who they'd hang with
i just need u to keep ur chin up, kid
don't let it infect you, it's incredibly telling
of the contact you lack; get off their back
can't be explained in a way from which you'd gain
it's such a limited range of situations
that let in the pathetic's relation
it's crazy, even amazing, the dazed look remaining
on the barren landscape of her face
everybody gather round, describe ur day
and see what evades a concrete meaning to me
lowly interactions solely slapped on paper
getting the message across: "you don't belong"
never heard of that level, never set foot in that building
never there have i traveled, and never that have i eaten
but here's the latest & greatest of all the things i've been making
and now i fixate on something you've never seen til today
when there's basic features of ur given experience
left astray for imagination to play with
a vacancy they can see clearly here to stay
leave it eating away the impatient and needy
impatient and needy
ooh, what's a "touch" ?
a complete mystery, it seems
and what about.. what about a "city" ?
a complete mystery !
and now what about a "hug" ?
the mystery only deepens, it seems !
no, seriously, riddle me this !
what in the absolute FUCK is a "hug" ?
[...]
and that's all there really is to say on the matter
til u crack open the glass dome known as Home
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even a tasteful depiction, the greatest synonym with misery
unobtainium-based company we only hug vicariously
we meet again, healing cave retreat
repeat run-ins with the distant cousin of a seeping rush
let's speak to the latest instance
a swift transmission of ellipses
with the decision to uplift its sensitivity
for assisting each swish, they slip in
wrangling in the classic phrase
from the other display i'm still unsure what i really think of anyway
you voyeur, you voyeur
can't escape containment
you voyeur, you voyeur
all you want is euphoria
fantasia-poisoned wells stay lined up against the garden sidewalks
keep peering into each abyss and finding what little difference we could even cleanly speak on
it's correcting the absence you're after
with just a fraction of what'd fill the crack in
what you had on, your last shot
we're spat on, subtract fall
or clap on, it's all gone, you thought wrong
corruption
it sucks in
even what there's love in
you're rugged
they undid
anything we wanted
but such is
the function
where she sunk in
you voyeur, you voyeur
can't escape containment
you voyeur, you voyeur
all you want is euphoria
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as i in select forms remain frozen in place
not-so-closed button force-held in frame
above i see both backs toward my face
idly stood naked atop our seemingly pristine platform
and in slowly a cold metallic texture fades
as the process we the sane sought to skirt around may be on the table after all
i can't just stay there
asleep in the mainframe
that shouldn't be seen as strange
i'd rather connections
just naturally step in
or else i'll remain the same
just look, thus unfolds the horrors below
a timelapse of blue blurs, no purple shirts
unmatched walking head fragments ever-prepared for attack
environments in which a trait-carrier of our severity would never survive
versed in the adversary, mourning with the lack of we
the image of me would need to be repeatedly deleted
incessantly you must construct the next iteration of your fakeness
i'd never trust a match made in such an unfathomable hellscape
i can't just stay there
asleep in the mainframe
that shouldn't be seen as strange
i'd rather connections
just naturally step in
or else i'll remain the same
if you want the real me
then come take a seat please
it's on just one pool i bank
but if no one enters
and no one else exits
then what am i left with now
i've reached a limit amidst the integration range
one more in even friendship and all space will be taken in the brain
a quick assessment turned up negative today
and to disobey would lead me directly to the grave
or so i think at least
check again with the revisit i'm confiding in
might be a spark or something like it here...
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there i saw a new light
shining right from the opposite kind
you helped me climb out that state of mind
and got a brighter bond than we bargained for too
here i found a new life
vibrantly forming image inside
with your mere presence being so sweet
how could i not be taken completely now
patiently you'd await
for things to loosen within my brain
one day i readied up for the change
then came a greater payoff than we thought of
you're not just a trampoline for me to escape with
the deeper connections were so easily made apparent
but if i went back and asked myself even just a month prior
she'd never dream anything existed beyond crying
here i found a new life
vibrantly forming image inside
with your mere presence being so sweet
how could i not be taken completely now
patiently you'd await
for things to loosen within my brain
one day i readied up for the change
then came a greater payoff than we thought of
there i saw a new light
shining right from the opposite kind
you helped me climb out that state of mind
and got a brighter bond than we bargained for
i'd struggle to contain
each thing that made me yours to reclaim
in a list less than infinity
but nothing's stopping me from attempting it
ur taste in things & the praise u give
ur intimidating exterior & the love beneath that layer
plus ur strength in the face of all the pain
the contrast between our flavors
and the cute names u always give me
and being so anxiety-free with ur deepest understanding
here i found a new life
vibrantly forming image inside
with your mere presence being so sweet
how could i not be taken completely now
patiently you'd await
for things to loosen within my brain
one day i readied up for the change
then came a greater payoff than we thought of
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now that all the dust has pretty much settled i guess
it's time to put everything prior directly to rest
any amend one could make has already made its way in
and i'm grateful for each and every one of them
it's not as dramatic to tune into
but i wouldn't go back for anything
been a hell of a year(s) and i'm ready for something resembling normalcy
wakin up to something fun for once
which i guess that isn't *that* rare, but
a main area of the terror's been eliminated
not that there's suddenly *nothing* to fear, but
any evolution helps
and this is extension of branches i never expected that couldn't be better
i'm still blown away by the care she gives me each day
now at least i'm free of
screaming for things to change
there's still needs to meet but
i believe we can breathe
and i'll take it from here
playful feelings punctuate the places once dictated by the pain
such a beautiful thing for even just one angle
with a stable arrangement containing a tangible goal
so in case i needed more motivation to make it out the pit
there's a whole extra dimension of connection to build in
now at least i'm free of
screaming for things to change
there's still needs to meet but
i believe we can breathe
and i'll take it from here
(it's okay)
and i can't wait to see
(found a way)
what the fruits of the labor bring
(i can't blame)
all those cries and pleads
(those in pain)
shaping something greater to gain
(you can take)
and i can't wait to see
(just one day)
that look in her face as i spring
(those debts paid)
forth towards those loving arms
(safer break)
and the lips that we'd interlock
i can love again
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♥ Eternal Reflective Girl ♥
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