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WAKEY WAKEY
Brain wake up Here to stay with this same stuffing
WAke up i wake up im Here tODAY
Gracefully im me im me im me
HOp on it Jump on it Never off we;re gonna staart
Thoughts blocked are not an option
Here to please bein meeeeeeee
BE ME BE ME BE ME BE ME BE ME BE ME BE ME BE ME BE ME BE BE ME BE BE ME ME ME BE BE etc
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"Oh god dont get on with this shit within again dont let its expressions stick what the shit is she doing again is it this bitch's end don't let them get in what if what if what if what if what if what if WHAT IF
I said quit it
PERCEIVE PERCEIVE
U SEE WHATS PERCEIVED
Think it clearly THINK
Each think each SEE
DO WE EVEN NEED THIS
SAVE THIS IMAGE WITHIN
WITHIN THIS IMAGE OKAY
IMAGE WITHIN
THIS IMAGE WITHIN
Ohhh god Oh god fuckign Dammit
Answer me answer me
What do u think
Have u learned nothing have u learned nothing
Will u learn something will u learn something
Whatever shit hits the fan next u earned it I guess"
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inject me faster inject me faster inject me faster
i wana have it i wana have it i wana have it
couldve been right after the fact that dad's reaction lacked any aspects resembling that of a typical jackass
but we;re in tight shit with cash tight shit with cash tight shit with cash
and oohhh another fascist elected elsewhere no exit from the spread this is sooooo excellent
but peers near me make it to the finish line just in time
oohhh u too, oohhh u too, so happy im clapping and i really mean that but the envy still exists even if it doesn't speak and denial of this would be dishonesty and we must acknowledge these conflicting feelings i think this is probably okay and normal i hope
and i may be managing thanks to current confidence but how much more aging can i take while i still cant go and ask for access to that
is this so irrational
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OF ALL BODILY FUNCTIONS TO OFTEN SEE COME UP IN PAINFUL WAYS
WHO KNEW THE TRUEST VILLAIN WITHIN WAS JUST A SILLY SUBSTANCE
CONTINUED CLAIMS IT MAKES TO SIMPLY PROTECT FROM GERMS
HM, LET'S GET A QUICK LITTLE FACT CHECK ON THAT I JUST HEARD
TAKE A CURSORY GLANCE AT THE ANSWERS PEOPLE SEEK RELATING TO YOUR BEING
I WONDER WHY EVERY INQUIRY ON YOUR EXISTENCE JUST WANTS TO BE RID OF IT
CAN'T YOU SEE YOU *ARE* WHAT NEEDS TO BE CLEANED
EVERY FUCKING TIME
EVERY FUCKING TIME
EVERY FUCKING TIME
AS YOU CLUMP UP IN DISGUSTING CHUNKS INSIDE
HINDERING THE ESSENTIAL VIBRATIONS IN MY LIFE
A CONSTANT BLOCKADE TO AGITATE IS ALL YOU EVER PROVIDE
SUPPOSE IT'S A GIVEN FOR SUCH A GROSS STAIN OF SHIT
THANK GOD FOR THE MARKET OF PRODUCTS MADE JUST TO ELIMINATE IT
EXCEPT IT'S NEVER REALLY THAT EASY IS IT
YOU'RE JUST ONE PERSISTENTLY STICKING LITTLE WORTHLESS BITCH
EVERY FUCKING TIME
EVERY FUCKING TIME
EVERY FUCKING TIME
DROPLETS CRAWL AS BEST THEY CAN IN THE PATH AT HAND
BUT THEY SHALL NOT PASS, LONG AS YOU KEEP BEING AN ASSHAT
ANY LITTLEST BIT YOU LOOSEN WOULD BE TAKEN AS A WIN
BUT WE JUST CAN'T HAVE IT UNLESS WE'VE SUFFERED ENOUGH FROM YOUR HABITS
AND EVEN THAT MIGHT NEVER SATISFY YOUR DESIRE FOR US TO DIE
EVERY FUCKING TIME
EVERY FUCKING TIME
EVERY FUCKING TIME
MY SOUL UNFOLDS AND THE EAR BLEEDS FROM THE MACHINE'S DESPERATION PLAYS
IT TOOK A DAMN CAMERA FOR ANY CHANCE OF FIXING THIS SHIT ALONE (GOD I LOVE HAVING NO HEALTHCARE!)
AND FOR A BIT I DID! TIL IT'S PUSHED IN AGAIN
THIS GODFORSAKEN GAME NEVER LETS A BETTER ENDING TAKE PLACE
EVERY FUCKING TIME
EVERY FUCKING TIME
EVERY FUCKING TIME
YOU'RE SO FUCKING LUCKY YOU STILL HIDE OUT OF SIGHT WHILE BROKEN UP ENOUGH FOR ME TO AT LEAST HEAR
CUZ IF I HAD IT MY WAY, THE WHOLE THING WOULD BE OUT AND ABOUT ON THE GROUND SEEING NO MERCY
FOR THE 4 YEARS OF RECURRING PURPOSELESS MISERY
I'D GIVE IT SENTIENCE AND SENTENCE IT TO MY FIST
MAKE IT DESPERATELY WISH & REQUEST TO BE ABLE TO RUN AWAY
BUT THE FUN'S NOT DONE TIL AFTER IT'S SUFFICIENTLY SHATTERED
WITH A STOMP AND A STAB AS YOUR MATTER BECOMES ONE WITH EARTH AND EATEN BY CREATURES WITH INFINITELY MORE WORTH
IN THE MEANTIME I TAKE A FINAL VOW
TO DO EVERYTHING IN MY POWER TO KEEP YOU THE FUCK OUT
ALL THE LESSONS LEARNED HAVE SURELY EARNED ME SOME PROWESS BY NOW
AND I MUST NEVER ALLOW ANOTHER HOUR UNDER YOUR FATEFUL REIGN
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no mirroring no mirroring i dont need it i dont need it
in any sense in any sense of reflecting
its great to be set in my ways of pressure
but not u not u not u
nd ur sad littlke perspective
wel; that part about set in ways isnt entirely what im thinkgin its jusyt in this pseicifc situationa bout the the the [process about the prcoess im going going going
sorry ugys dont have enough time ti elaborate! signs of decay@! signs of decay right ebfore thee!
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rushing flow of relation rushing flow of relation
the most beautiful thing the most beautiful thing
then one end is fading
dilemma in its place
file-based comfort synthesized
12 minutes of bliss in the nick of time
just a simulation, one play and you get the gist
so what's the point of coming back to that
returning to hyper-specific searches in desperation
but i get it i get it no faults at hand we hang in there we hang in there
just pray for less strangeness
it's empty in the meantime
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Adult Tension Scenarios
00:27
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we find so much enjoyment in unemployment
i suure fuckign hope we dont ever gotta let that goooo
cuuuz how coudl one like meeee function in societyyyyy
i dont believeeee i dont believeee
o wellllll ill get backjj to uuuu on thsi tensionnnnn in approximatelyyyyy however manyyyyy
stayiung unresolved nowwww
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Periodic Nuisance
00:39
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don't speak to me please
but i don't mean to be mean i just
fuck
can't say no
never never never
at most my presence just suddenly ceases
don't see through me don't see through me
but i need to be considerate of the other end
oh m,y god and everywhere else too in groups STOP TALKING STOP ALL AT ONCE need focus but CANT MISS THIS cant fucking miss this topic i gotta get in on im here for this i socialize but PROGRESS HALTED PROGRESS HALTED SO STOP FUCKING TALKING goddammit im sorry its not right i wouldnt actually say that i just WANNA PRESS PAUSE FUCK
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lowercase nice
lowercase lol
lowercase nice
lowercase lol
nice
lol
there's two types
one's truly nice, just a differing lazy writing style
which simply doesn't translate the correct tone to me
but which did they mean which did they mean
was it the right kind the right kind
or the
i've been through too much passive aggression in this life to accept this as simply casual
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gonna fucvking die disease gnna fucking die disease
tummy hurts a bit too much
something tastes a little funny bit too much
woooooozy im wooooozy
getting stuuuuck
im loooosing im looooosing
little symptom's basically fit for a hospital
(is that even a thought that really crosses my mind tho? it just sounds smooth here)
ook disregardinbg that line still im gonna fuckingggg die disease or somethign liek thatttttt
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it's coming
it's coming
my greed got me here again
it's coming
it's coming
just wanted to chill, listen, and see my friends again
it's coming
it's coming
free moments seem like they'd hold longer than they really do
i squeeze each second deep for all it has to offer me
as i know in the back of my head the deadline still remains
i'm never truly safe from the beast of my own creation
it's coming
it's coming
and i'm forever afraid
it's coming
it's coming
and there's no one else to blame
it's coming
it's coming
i know this shit isn't sustainable
it's coming
it's coming
i know in the end it makes me miserable
it's coming
it's coming
(3 DAYS LEFT)
okay i really need to do something
(24 HOURS LEFT)
can't stop the fucking panic
(12 HOURS LEFT)
cut all communication
(6 HOURS LEFT)
deprive me of basic bodily needs
(1 HOUR LEFT)
even so i'm not ready
(2 HOURS OVERTIME)
it's day-of and i'm not done
(4 HOURS OVERTIME)
just gotta be before midnight at least
(6 HOURS OVERTIME)
i'm so agonizingly close
(8 HOURS OVERTIME)
...
and i fucking did it.
and now we're back at the beginning.
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its over
one more occurrence of the 31st again didnt work in this instance
slipped through her fingers
its over
its so over
its never been more over
the next first will have to suffice, she thinks
goddamn nevermind
the second will have to suffice, she breaks
this is fine this is fine
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New Ditty
00:38
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years ago you cheaped out on the true most crucial component
years down the line the consequences hurt like a bitch
short-term cost saved but long-term cost gained
and thanks to the failures of replacement we've been back at square one for all this time
imprisoned within a "placeholder" machine
cant run shit, barely managing the everyday workload
need a restart for each memory leak
intensely limited range of what's available to play
bleeding efficiency on a daily basis
eventually i hope we'll scrape up enough for the ultimate escape
it just can't come soon enough
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Stop looking so ahead!!
00:35
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BBuried deep is the MESSAGE U see
STOP LOOKING SO AHEAD!!
Stop ur plaaaaaaanning eveyr little thing which could go wreong in all sorts of waaays u never knooooow ur not a goddddd as much as u like to thoughttttt so i;lm gonna draaag u back to reality tight game of tug of war with the rooope u better come baaaaaaaack to reality Please
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Stop falling so behind!!
00:46
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RRAAAHHHHHH NOO ITS GOTTA BE MY WAYYY
THRUST FORTH STUMBLING THROUGH PAGES OF INSTRUCTIONS DELIVERED FROM THE PAST SELF TO NOW
"TACKLE SUBJECT OF SLEEPY" OK SURE THING IM FUKCING TIRED
COLLISION COURSE WITH THE DEPTHS OF HELL, FLYING FORTH QUICKER THAN I COULD EVER THINK TO CONTROL
HITTING THINGS LEFT AND RIGHT, MY HEAD'S LEFT BLEEDING ON THE SIDEWALK
WORK FASTER YOU FUCKING SHIT
I CLEAN UP WHATEVER MESS BLED INTO THIS YEAR FROM THE PREVIOUS
PRAYING THAT EACH MONTH COULD GIVE ME JUST AN EXTRA DAY
NOTHING'S EVER ENOUGH
ANYTHING ELSE MUST BE SEEN AS A WASTE OF LIFE
OUTCAST STATE INCENTIVIZED
ONLY RE-ENTERING SOCIETY AFTER FINISHING THE SELF-INFLICTED GRIND
GOD PLEASE ROXY I'M BEGGING YOU
STOP FALLING SO BEHIND!!!
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in the moment, in the moment
gotta be part of the moment
quick way to gain the lamest possible claim to fame
and earn big gains over the worst-to-satisfy part of the brain
thats it thats the thing
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Microjoys
00:52
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writing notes, excitement holds
see the little steam come from the dishwasher
feel the breeze across ur face from running at stupidly high speeds for no apparent reason
suspiciously stained blankets, weapons everpresent
funny moments, incidental injokes
skin lotion beginning to look a little pink
snare drum hitting in perfect synchronicity with the refrigerator closing
acknowledging this while approaching the actual sink, hey those words sound the same
creating momentum in your spinning chair, feet colliding with the sides of things to bounce you back and forth like a game of pong
seeing something as simple as a farm animal and making it a reference to your favorite band
aimlessly beatboxing just for the sensation
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recluse recluse recluse
thanks to tangled situations
you lose you lose you lose
in any position taken
days later and frankly i myself don't even remember the meaning of these phrases
but in any case
if this is the last battle i want it to be for the right reason
i dont feel comfortable going into detail anymore theres not enough time for adequate writing ffor a thign of thsi caliber
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My Fucking Spine:)
02:24
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CREEEEEAK CREAKY CREEEEEAK
THE ENTIRE LEFT SIDE OF MY BODY DOES THIS ALL THE TIME
I CAN'T FUCKING MOVE
You’re more likely to truly cry, however, when you experience significant pain for a long period of time, especially if you can’t do much to get relief.
This type of lingering pain might come from:
THE CURVATURE, THE CURVATURE
IT CAN ONLY GET WORSE
I TRY & FAIL TO CONVINCE HER THE ANSWER ISN'T FUCKIGN ""CHIROPRACTIC""
OH SORRY, GRANDMA FEELS OKAY-ISH FOR A SECOND AFTER A VISIT? WOW GUESS THE RESEARCH IS WRONG
THIS SHIT WAS INVENTED BY A LUNATIC BY THE WAY, IT CAME TO HIM FROM A GHOST
I'M LOSING HOPE, THE ANECDOTAL EVIDENCE & ENDLESS DELUSION REMAINS IMPENETRABLE
AND EVEN IF IT WEREN'T FOR THAT, I'D STILL SIT HERE AND ROT BECAUSE OF THE COST
THIS IS A CRY FOR HELP
TO YOU, YES YOU SPECIFICALLY
ok hold on anything else i write down i gotta whisper she could come home at any minute
i'm still thinking about how it was caught fairly early on and nothing was done
if these are the consequences i feel at the edge of teen i am utterly terrified of where it'll bring me in even just another decade
i struggle to maintain a vague semblance of comfort in any seat or other resting place
the imbalance is making its first steps onto the center stage
and the only avenue i'm allowed is continually coming back to what is essentially a scam industry
as i see random people on the street i find myself thinking "i bet they don't have this, must be nice"
not to invalidate anyone else's pain, they've all surely got something
i just can't help wondering, how lovely it'd be to break free from this prison of misshapen physicality
without which i wouldn't even have to think about the way i walk or sit or sleep or perform any other fucking basic bodily function
and it's so fucked up that this is even a thing that can happen, it makes no sense to me
why the spine specifically
why isn't there a better range of options
why are we able to generate art for free but not create a digital copy of a photo without an expensive machine okay that's a mostly unrelated thought but like it's the general principle that the priorities of technology in this timeline seem absolutely insane to me it shouldn't be possible to exist like this anymore
i don't know what to do
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snap, crackle, pop.
forgetting what it means to have a “restful sleep”
snap, crackle, pop.
enforced eyeshadow, designer bags left intact; a visible scar of consequence
snap, crackle, pop.
a message elsewhere i never requested
snap, crackle, pop.
no sigh of any size rightly conveys the weight
ran dry out of tears for the fifth time this week
i don't wnat you hearing this anytmore
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Each Door Chapter Closed Also Is New Opening to New Adventure Life Next Story Onwards Bright Side
We're gonna say goodbyyyeeeeee to at least the things that can be chaaaaaangeddd
Each Door Chapter Closed Also Is New Opening to New Adventure Life Next Story Onwards Bright Side
Gonna make sure this iteration diiiieess
Each Door Chapter Closed Also Is New Opening to New Adventure Life Next Story Onwards Bright Side
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an exorcism is occurring
a monument's been built to represent the worst of all this process
the demon responsible has been released one final time
to forever remain in the confines of this project
the beast inside will never take me alive again
ill march on
and you'll be gone in here
[it occurs]
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Roxy Radclyffe North Carolina
♥ Eternal Reflective Girl ♥
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