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My Fucking Spine​:​)

from XPERIENCE Everything by Roxy Radclyffe

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CREEEEEAK CREAKY CREEEEEAK
THE ENTIRE LEFT SIDE OF MY BODY DOES THIS ALL THE TIME
I CAN'T FUCKING MOVE

You’re more likely to truly cry, however, when you experience significant pain for a long period of time, especially if you can’t do much to get relief.

This type of lingering pain might come from:

THE CURVATURE, THE CURVATURE
IT CAN ONLY GET WORSE
I TRY & FAIL TO CONVINCE HER THE ANSWER ISN'T FUCKIGN ""CHIROPRACTIC""
OH SORRY, GRANDMA FEELS OKAY-ISH FOR A SECOND AFTER A VISIT? WOW GUESS THE RESEARCH IS WRONG
THIS SHIT WAS INVENTED BY A LUNATIC BY THE WAY, IT CAME TO HIM FROM A GHOST
I'M LOSING HOPE, THE ANECDOTAL EVIDENCE & ENDLESS DELUSION REMAINS IMPENETRABLE
AND EVEN IF IT WEREN'T FOR THAT, I'D STILL SIT HERE AND ROT BECAUSE OF THE COST
THIS IS A CRY FOR HELP
TO YOU, YES YOU SPECIFICALLY
ok hold on anything else i write down i gotta whisper she could come home at any minute

i'm still thinking about how it was caught fairly early on and nothing was done
if these are the consequences i feel at the edge of teen i am utterly terrified of where it'll bring me in even just another decade
i struggle to maintain a vague semblance of comfort in any seat or other resting place
the imbalance is making its first steps onto the center stage
and the only avenue i'm allowed is continually coming back to what is essentially a scam industry

as i see random people on the street i find myself thinking "i bet they don't have this, must be nice"
not to invalidate anyone else's pain, they've all surely got something
i just can't help wondering, how lovely it'd be to break free from this prison of misshapen physicality
without which i wouldn't even have to think about the way i walk or sit or sleep or perform any other fucking basic bodily function
and it's so fucked up that this is even a thing that can happen, it makes no sense to me
why the spine specifically
why isn't there a better range of options
why are we able to generate art for free but not create a digital copy of a photo without an expensive machine okay that's a mostly unrelated thought but like it's the general principle that the priorities of technology in this timeline seem absolutely insane to me it shouldn't be possible to exist like this anymore

i don't know what to do

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from XPERIENCE Everything, released February 2, 2023

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